Oh gosh I totally forgot to update this blog. Well we went in last Thursday and we seen the blob. That's exactly what it looked like a blob. We saw the heartbeat it was a wonderful 144 beats per minute. My next doc apt is April 21ts. I will be 10 weeks then, so we might even be able to hear the heartbeat on the Doppler at that time YAY!

1 hour

In one hour and 30 mins we will finally be able to hear this baby's heart beat.

I found out today that P found out yesterday that she is having a girl. I guess deep down inside I really do hope its a girl. P has a little boy who is 4 months younger then Carter. And once again we are pregnant again together, its really kind of cool!

Lilly or Lincoln

Yup that's what the name is going to be. Lilly if its a girl Lincoln if its a boy. Jim and I fought for 7 months before we picked out the name Carter. It was after all the only named we both agreed on. When I asked him about the name and he said maybe, I knew it was the name it was only name he even said maybe to. That was out of 100's of names. Lilly was our girl name. It was a name Jim and I have both loved, a name we decided to name our little girl before we were even married. When I was pregnant with Carter I found that my cousin Jason and his girlfriend Jen planned on naming there baby Lilly if it was a girl. I was so bummed she was due a couple months before me so I knew she would beat me to the name. When they found out that they were having a boy I was so freaking excited. It was my chance to steal the name I have loved forever. I just wasn't planning on me having a boy too. Jason and Jen's little one is now named Ben not Lilly. As far as I know Jen or anyone else in my family besides my sister in law is pregnant. Lilly is all mine. That is if celly who Jim has now be calling Tad, is a girl.

Lincoln was a name I loved when I was pregnant with Carter. Jim on the other hand wasn't all that in love with it. I have decided that I am just not going to fight with him about it this time. If celly (aka Tad) is a boy its Lincoln. Come on Carter does share his name with a president. Our Carter is Carter James the president is Jimmy Carter. Lincoln fits right. His middle name will not be Abe though.

As for middle names maybe I will leave that up to Jim this time. I didn't have a choice with Carter's middle name.

How am I suppose to update this blog when really there is nothing new? We are so so early in the pregnancy that nothing changes. I don't feel pregnant I don't look pregnant. And I just already went through all of it. It just kind of all seems well boring. With Carter every thing was new each apt I had I learned something new. Its all a been there done that kind of thing. Maybe it will change when I hear the heart beat. I hope so. I feel like I don't love this baby as much as I love Carter. I am sure that will change though. Carter is here a living breathing being this baby well is still a bunch of cells. Do I love this bunch of cells well sure. I sure can't wait until it has a heart beat though.

When I first found out I was like well nothing is going to change this baby is going to be easy. I mean we already have all the baby gear. Yes we need to upgrade some of Carter's things, like from his high chair to a booster seat and what not but this new baby we don't need anything. Well I have decided that the new baby and Carter need there own rooms. IF it is a girl. I want do the nursery in pink and all of that. If its a girl Carters room is going in to the basement. We have to make it a legal bedroom first. All we have to do for that is put in a new legal window. But that's not all we are going to do. We have paneling in the room now that is all getting torn down. Its getting sheet rocked painted and carpeted. He already has this really awesome twin log bed, and a dresser to go in the room. He has the biggest closet in the whole house and that will be so nice for toy storage.

As for the baby's room well if its a girl my dream is pink and brown. It already has a chair railing thing in there so really all there is to do is paint. Well that and get a new bed set. Probably something I will just pick up at babies r us. I search online for the perfect bed set for Carter for months on end. I was ready to shell out big bucks on the perfect bed set. Guess where I found it. Target and cheap too $40 but all that mattered to me was that its perfect. Exactly what I was looking for.

Well that's all for now nap time will be over soon and mommie duties are calling me

Poppy seed

Well the baby is now the size of a poppy seed. Today I am 3 weeks and 6 days pregnant. We still calling the baby celly, after all it is still a bunch of cells.

Life is about to get crazy

So with the addition of being pregnant I have realized that our quite simple life is going to get crazy with two kids under 2. Not only are we going to have 2 under the age or 2, we have 4 dogs now. We recently added a golden retriever pup which we named Duke. He is 11 weeks old now, we got him when he was 6 weeks old. Would we have gotten Duke if we had known I would have gotten pregnant right away? NO! Will we be getting rid of Duke just because I am pregnant. No! A lot of people do though. Duke is already attending obedience classes, he has his second class tonight. I am actually hoping to get his Canine Good Citizenship award before the baby is born. I did plan on competing in obedience with him but now I am not so sure that's going to happen this year. But he will be a highly trained dog come time for the baby. He is really a smart dog and I am not going to let that go to waist. He is 11 weeks old and fully potty trained. He hasn't had an accident in the house in weeks. Wish I could say that for the pugs.

A lot of people dump there pets when they get pregnant or have the baby. I hate this. This will not be us. I love that Carter and his little brother or sister is going to grow up with all of these dogs. I can picture it now Carter walking to the park with Duke following right behind him. I know that my children will always have a great bond with our dogs. It can and will work out!

Pregnant

After trying to have a baby for 4 years I finally got pregnant on my own. Ok I was taking metformin and I did lose 40lbs. 9 months later the most wonderful little man was born.

We knew right away we wanted to try having more kids, Jim being one of 5 wants a lot of kids. Me being an only child knew I would never want to have my child be an only child.

When Carter was 6 months old I took a drug called provera to induce my period. I also took another drug called Clomid, which is suppose to help you ovulate. Keep in mind Carter was still breastfeeding. After doing this for 2 months, I started to get my period on my own. But I also dried up. It was a chance I had to take. I took it and I dried up. Do I regrette it yes in a way I do, I miss the breastfeeding so bad. Well I got my period twice on my own. I don't think I ovulated but I guess I don't know I could have. Well this month I went in for a ultrasound which had shown that I had probably ovulated the nite before. I went in a few days later for a blood test that had shown that I had indeed ovulated.

Fast forward a few days. I have felt sick to my stomach now for a few days, I have known. Jim wasn't so sure. Anyways we took the new puppy to his first night at obidence classes. After class we had to stop at target for diapers, wipes, and formula. While there I bought some pregnancy tests. I got home and peed on the stick, it was there very faint but there. I showed Jim he still wasn't convinced and told me to pee on the most expensive brand that we had bought. I didn't have to pee, so I waited until this morning I peed on the more expensive brand. Again its there but its faint. I am currently 10 days past ovulation, in all honesty way to early to test. But its there a line is a line and I am indeed once again PREGNANT!!!!!!!!

I looked it up online and I am due November 13th. Which so happens to be Jim's BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

So inclusion I would like to announce that I AM PREGNANT!!!!!

I haven't even spoke to my doctor yet (she was out of the office today) but I will call first thing in the morning I know she is going to be super excited. After having trouble finding an ob/gyn that wanted to take me as a patient when I was pregnant with Carter I found the most wonderful awesome doctor in the world. I seriously can't say how awesome she is. After 9 months of seeing her we have become friends in a way. I remember her saying when I had my ultrasound last week that she was very optimistic that I had ovulated, I replied ya you always are. Well she finally was right.

There are so many things going through my head right now.

• How the hell are we going to manage 4 dogs and 2 babies at one time.
• What are we going to do about Carter we only have 2 bedrooms upstairs. I am not putting Carter in the bedroom in the basement when he wont even be 2 years old. No way.
• Ugh we just bought a bran new stroller and now we need to buy a double stroller.
• I would love a girl so much, all I have ever wanted was a girl, but right now a boy would be so much easier. We already have every thing for a boy.
• Not only will I have Croix and Carter to take care of during the day I will have 4 kids (Croix's mommy is pregnant too)
• How cool is it that Jim's best friend wife (Croix's mommy) and I are pregnant again at the same time.
• Can I love this baby as much as I love Carter
• How is my mom going to handle it, she loves Carter probably more then anything in the world can she love another baby just as much?
• I am excited that my sister in law and I are pregnant at the same time too, though her baby will be 6 months older then the new baby.
• How is Carter going to handle not being the center of attention.

Ugh how am I suppose to sleep with all of this going on in my head. Oh well I think I am going to go throw up now.